Oh, woe is me/mine.

So, I do realize this is a little soon, but in my efforts to cram for my final of three exams I am finally giving up on the fight.

I shall use this one last method to procrastinate the very last moments of my studying time, then I will sleep, wake and write an exam with absolutely no preparation.

Hense the woe. That among other things, of course.

I need simplicity, which I'm sure I could find if I seek hard enough. But the complexity of all aspects of live seem to consume my brain lately, and I find it hard to enjoy any sort of simplicity.
Whats with the holidays for always making me feel so low? And is it even really the holidays or am I constantly blaming my surroundings for my bad moods?

I am in a rut of epic proportions. But, knowing is half the battle and I'll just have to put this knowledge to good use.

Briefly being exposed to the awful show, 'The Hills', today, I discovered the reason for my hatred of the show.

It reflects my life, HA!

I'm serious though. I realize that I have (hopefully) a more attentive and informed grasp on life and the world than most of those girls. (Though, I in no way assume I am better.) But, the drama that enfolds (and has enfolded) within the pathetically orchestrated attempt at a reality show so relfects the drama that I have, and continue to, let consume me throughout my life.
I'm not sure how this makes me feel, and once again, I long for simplicity.

I think this is something we all need to focus on. There are a lot of things that we mere humans can't control in this life, which fucking sucks of course because we obviously long to control the happenings within our life.

But, this quest for control isn't healthy. Especially for my mental health lately.
I am preparing a New Years resolution to trump all New Years resolutions in my past:

-To take all I come across for what it is.

I only hope I can accomplish this, because it would make everything else run so smoothly.

Anyway, it is officially late, according to my biological clock. And I write an exam early tomorrow morning. 'Canadian Political Parties and Electoral Behaviour', a topic of which I am currently extremely cynical.

Goodnight my reader(s) ;)


-Amanda-lama-ding-dong.